My heart has been so grieved by the loss of our dear friends, Billy and Hope's, precious 4 year old daughter, Alaina. It has been a week now, and it has been one of the most difficult things for me. I just cannot wrap my head around it. I believe that we serve a sovereign God, but because I can't understand in my finite little mind, it causes me to struggle with it. God is most concerned with glorifying Himself, and I know that even this tragedy will bring Him glory. I just can't see the big picture and that drives me crazy! I know that I don't have to understand, and may never, for God to be glorified, but I want something to make sense. We have prayed continuously that Billy and Hope would believe that God is who He says He is, and to trust Him. However, God is asking me if I truly believe what I'm praying for them!